Grr.

Ok, so at 2.45am, some things are starting to annoy me. Like, my nose. It's running and blocked up for no reason. And my left mouse button makes a really loud clicking sound when I put my finger on it, without pressing. It just feels a bit loose and it's bugging me since the thing's only a few days old. Maybe it'll settle down in a few weeks after it gets worn in. Thing is, it wasn't doing it earlier, or not that I noticed, so why it's started it, I'll never know. Maybe it's just getting to me because I'm so tired. And I can't sleep. That's another annoying thing. Ach, maybe I should just go to sleep as I have a driving lesson in the morning. Right, I am going to bed. Hopefully I'll feel happier about everything in the morning.

Night night x

Good :)

My mood, the weather, my life. Good covers it all, right now :) I have the best boyfriend I could ask for, the best dad (even though I slag him off, he's still my da) and I couldn't ask for any more. I'm truly blessed with everyone in my life, even the ones who I don't get to speak to all the time. You all know I still care :) 'Specially you, Dumpling! But honestly, this weekend has to be one of the highest ranked in quite a while. I'm exhausted, aching and feel like crying, but I'm happier than ever. The house is pretty much tidy, I had my supper made for me, my breakfast and then banana loaf. I told you I was spoiled! I don't really know what I'd do without my honey there for me, but I'll tell you one thing: I'd be completely lost. He's been so caring this weekend and he's had plenty sleep so I think he's feeling better for it as well. Now to get him to bed early every night this week and get my menu sorted for what I'm taking to work for lunch. Made chicken pasta earlier so the left overs will do me for a couple of days. Woo :) Also, I must get on with the washing once I'm home. We can then make dinner, I can put him to bed then get on with more cleaning and washing. Keep on top of things :) Oh, and teamwork! If I'm at work and he's off, he's going to do a load or two of washing for me and keep on top of the place, and vice versa. That way, we'll be able to spend our time together on our own and not having to tidy the house or anything. Hooray!

I'm in such a good mood! Although I'm really tired too. I just want to go to sleep and in fact, I might! I will also take an ibuprofen to try and keep my muscles at bay overnight and it might help me in the morning too. I'm just going to have to keep myself stocked for a while until I get used to the work. However, I'm hoping my gym stuff arrives tomorrow! That way, I can go into town on Wednesday and get going at the gym along with the man. It'll be good! It might also help me to get into shape a bit quicker as I have no doubt that my job will do the same. Together, along with a healthy, controlled diet, I'll be able to shed the pounds a bit easier. Hopefully.

And I just realised that I haven't posted my workout plan. But, I'm not going to do that until I've actually tried it out. I mean, it looks good on paper, but I don't know if it'll be any good once I'm actually there, so I'll let you know.

Anyway, I'm going to bed now. I'll be back sometime soon :)

Night x

Plan of Action

Right. Plan of action has been thought of and (almost) finalised. However, any help/information/words of wisdom would be greaty appreciated! I'll detail my plan in the next post, and honestly, feel free to give me any hints on how to adapt it, or even to let me know if you think it's a fairly well thought-out plan. Any feedback will be considered helpful!

So... The woman who did my fitness test said I have to get my bmi down to a certain level and I have to get my weight down to a certain level, according to a chart. A chart is a generalisation and a generalisation only. We are not all built the same, we do not have the same mass of bones in our bodies and we are not all the same build. In my eyes, she was wrong in telling me that I MUST be a certain way or else I'm not healthy. Well, I'm sorry but I don't believe a word of it. Someone of my stature has no business being a size 10. If I could get down to a 14, I'd be thrilled. Any further and people will start asking if I'm unwell... again. I say again because I've been down past a 14 before and everyone was asking if I was feeling alright. I was, but I was also pale (paler than normal) and looking tired and drawn. This was not my idea of looking good, and if I'm honest, I wasn't feeling good either. So I'm going to ignore what that woman said - mostly. I know I need to lose weight and my bmi (bullsh*t mass index, as I like to call it) is far too high, but I do not need to slim down enough to be able to look like a model in a bikini. Let's face it, it's just not going to happen!

What my main goal is, is to be a size 14, maybe a tad under to be a very comfortable 14, and to look and feel good and healthy. As soon as I start to look thin, I'm stopping the workout and just going to try and maintain the weight I reach. I'd like to be 90kg again, and as I'm sitting at 116kg just now, I have a bit to go! But I shall struggle on and make my goal weight. Apparently, I should make it by mid July, but we'll see. Woo!