Sunday 31 January 2010

S'no a bad thing. Just stop drifting.

*sings* Bloooo mooooooon... *looks around* uhm... *smiles nervously* Hi. Hows it goin'? I'm feeling rather random tonight. Been a very strange day. Had plenty of sleep, yet I still feel tired. I've also seen some random films today, like Vampire in Brooklyn, and The Corpse Bride. I get confused between which day it was that I watched what. Saw Troy either today or yesterday, but I honestly can't remember. I'm going through a mythical and historic phase, so been watching films to do with ancient history. I'm weird, I know, but such is life.

Time for bed. Heaven forbid I sleep in tomorrow. PLEASE!!!!! I don't wanna go out in the snow :(

Oichdhe mhath (probably spelt that wrong, but tally ho!)

See you's tomorrow for more chit-chat on random subjects.

COMMENT!!!

Dx

Saturday 30 January 2010

Lettus o lettus o lettus eat lettuce

Well, since I'm trying to lose weight, I better update you on how I'm doing. The answer is "not very well". Or, it was. I now have some healthy foods in my fridge, like lettuce, and coleslaw, and cottage cheese. I also own ryvita, and fruit tea. Yes, this is getting serious. I want to lose some more weight, or at least feel a bit better. Ha, fat chance of that.

Sitting watching "Man About Dog". It's a brilliant film, so thanks to the person who suggested it to me (you know who you are). Seriously, if you haven't seen it, I'd recommend you find it and watch it. It's a cert.

It's now 1.30am and I'm just doing some composing. Got a really nice piano and string piece, so developing it further and further. 8 part harmony, one way or another, and it's sounding really cool. Very baroque, verging on classical, and I must admit I'm quite impressed with it. Here goes nothing!

A random aside to my composition and weightloss: I'm fascinated by ancient history, Scottish and Irish. I love learning about it, and the mythology associated with it. Just thought I'd randomly put this in! Think I might go off to bed. Nighty night.

Dx

Friday 22 January 2010

Underwhere? No-wear.

Catering for women of all sizes is something that department stores are known for and pride themselves on. From a sleek size 4 to a shapely 30, any woman should be able to shop and find clothes for every occasion, that make them look fabulous and feel sexy. Shouldn't the same be accurate for the lingerie department?

As I said in a previous post, I struggled to find anything to fit me in a certain nameless shop, but now I will name this place - Topshop. Extortionate prices for tiny clothes, and only a couple of things in the whole store fitted me. These said items, however, were not modified to fit a larger shape, so I would have been better wearing a binliner. No joke. At first, I thought it was only a "model shop" that failed to stock anything for curvy women. I never dreamt that I'd struggle to find something in a John Lewis store.

The high street giant fails to stock lingerie for women with big boning, or a larger figure. The only reason I went there was to renew my lingerie collection. Recently I had a bra fitting, and found that I had bigger assets than I realised. So, I had to buy some new bras, and went to John Lewis to find something nice in my new size - 38D. I wasn't aware that it is a rare size.

However, after inspecting a few lines that I liked, I noticed they all had one thing in common: none of them had a back size larger than 36. Now, if this is the biggest back size, I wasn't going to have any luck in the section, since a 36 would only fit me in my dreams, or if I went on a crash diet forever more. Those of you who know me will know what my figure is like, and those of you who don't, listen close. I'm 5'7, well built, with broad shoulders, and legs that would challenge a rugby player's. Seriously. It's a nightmare getting anything to fit me right.

Anyways, after trapsing round John Lewis, I asked a saleswoman for some help. She had been running round after Rachel - she turns out to be a 30F which IS rare - and between journeys, I asked her about my size. I asked why there were no 38 backs, and you know what she said? Of course you don't. You weren't there. So I'll tell you. She said "Well, we don't bother keeping anything above a 36. There's no point". I'll tell you now, my face must have been a picture, because staring back at me were her eyes, wide open and filled with terror, and she gulped so hard it must have hurt. I was NOT impressed.

Honestly, it's ridiculous. The nation's average size for a woman is a 16. So bra sizes should generally reflect that. I'm a 16, and my back size is 38. So why aren't there more bra's around to fit? What's the reason or logic behind that? I'm sorry to rant on all the time. I just feel that the world - or at least, my readers if there are any - should know what the shopping world is like for us curvy women. It's a complete nightmare.

Gah. Tune in next time for another rant or something.

Peace out. Dx

Saturday 16 January 2010

Paprika Chicken

I randomly made some chicken tonight. It was looooovely. Probably very unhealthy, but tally ho! Here's the recipe.

1 Chicken Breast, cut into cubes
75g white rice

Coating for Chicken
1 tbsp olive oil
1 tsp paprika
1/2 tsp garlic salt

Stock/Sauce
120ml boiling water
15ml sweet chili sauce
1 tbsp brown sugar - dark muscovado preferably
1/2 chicken stock cube

Put oil and spices into a bowl and mix well. Add cubed chicken and mix until well coated. Heat a frying pan to a medium-high heat and place chicken in.
Boil water, measure into jug and add the stock cube, chili sauce and sugar. Stir until stock cube and sugar have dissolved. Once chicken is browned all round (should take 5 mins, turning occasionally), add the sauce mix and turn down to a medium heat.
While stock simmers and evaporates, boil rice in salted water.
When stock is thick and caramel-like in texture (think sticky yet fluid), remove from heat. At this time, ensure the rice is tender, then drain. Serve rice first, followed by the chicken. Enjoy! It's soooo yummy!


Thursday 14 January 2010

*Monthly Special*

Hey guys, Rachel here!

Wow. Christmas was a treat, eh? Ok, so I put on a few pounds... Not as many as I expected though, so it's all good. I say this, sitting in Starbucks with a large hot choccy and a chocolate-covered marshmallow dippy thing. And Dawn just discovered melted chocolate in her double-chocolate muffin. Wow.

Anyways. I just bought a watch... £145!!! Jeezy peeps!! It's fab though, and I found a pair of jeans that actually fit. I'm 5'1, and jeans are always too long. There's a petite range in next. And they fit fab!

Well, I better go for now. Will be doing my usual monthly post again in Feb. See you then!

Rx

Revolution?

Today, as I sat leafing through the latest Cosmo mag, sipping a large hot chocolate, nibbling on a vanilla muffin, I noticed something quite incredible. So incredible, I needed to take a second look to make sure I wasn't imagining things. I wasn't.

Models nowadays: always slim, toned, bronzed, glowing, beautiful, with perfect teeth, soft hair, perky boobs, and no cellulite, right? Well, this one was all of those things. Your typical modern day model, with all the bones that fit into those angular poses that you never see anyone sane doing in the "real world". A very pretty girl, cute, not overly thin like a twig with hair, lovely neck-length blonde hair, a gap in her teeth, soft lips, a warm smile,...

Hang on a second, I hear you say. A gap in her teeth? Yes, you read that correctly, dear readers. Finally, someone REAL has been chosen to model clothes. Or more normal than usual, anyways.

Maybe we're seeing the beginning of a revolution. Maybe "normal" people are the future of fashion. Maybe I'm just being optimistic in this body-conscious world, full of air-brushed/-pumped women, the land where trowels are used to lay make-up foundations, not cement ones. I can only hope, and maybe lead the way in giving real women - cellulite 'n' all - the chance to get ou there and flaunt what they've got, without being scared of being seen around these stick-insects that somehow rule the female (and male) realms of society.

Honestly, though. Who in their right mind (or out of it for that matter) would actually want to spend every free moment they get, pedalling on a squeaky exercise bike, depriving themselves of the foods they love, replacing them with rabbit food and straight water? I'm not saying to eat deep-fried mars bars for breakfast, followed by pepperoni pizzas for lunch, and a huge portion of greasy chips for dinner, with snacks of donuts and liquid chocolate spaced inbetween trips to the loo. I know it sounds good, but please don't. You're leaving yourself with very little choice of foods which are really special to you, and can give yourself as a treat.

Treats aren't something for blue moons. Have one when you fancy, like when you've worked really hard for something, after a hard day at work, when you're out for lunch with your girlfriends (yeah, like the Sex and the City ladies), you get the idea. We're here for a good time, so we might as well enjoy ourselves - and that includes eating what you really love! Life's too short to be standing on scales or constantly restraining your stomach with a tape-measure. I don't want to be skinny. Being nicely curvy is grand for me. Shapely. Size 0? Dream on, kiddo. If we were meant to be that small, we'd never have been given chocolate or wine! Besides, being that thin can't be all that healthy. It's bound to be far too much hard work, and certainly doesn't look that much fun.

Be proud of who you are, ladies! We're all unique, and don't need to change for anyone but ourselves. Only YOU know how you want to look. Be happy, love much, and laugh like there's no tomorrow!

Much love,

Dx

Wednesday 13 January 2010

Vanilla Muffins

Well I had an idea. I've been doing a fair bit of baking and cooking lately, and some of the recipes have been reeeeally nice and tasty. My muffins were so good, so the recipe is definately going up - once I work out the weights and quantities of the ingredients. I only have a small muffin tray - holds 6 medium ones - so you'll just have to increase as necessary.

Please remember these are average measurements!

Vanilla Muffins

6oz white self-raising flour
1oz brown sugar, granulated, though soft could work as well
1 medium egg, beaten
1 1/2oz butter/margarine
150ml milk
15ml vanilla extract - MUST be extract. Essense hasn't the same flavour
A little brown sugar for topping

Preheat oven to 180ºC (I have a fan assisted oven, so use maybe 200ºC for normal ovens, or the gas equivalent).

Cream butter and sugar together until a paste. Add beaten egg and beat until light and fluffy. Add milk and mix well. Now add the vanilla extract and combine.
Spoon in flour, mixing well until there is no lumps. Several spoonfuls can be added at a time, working in with a wooden spoon until all is mixed.
Line muffin tray with cases or greaseproof paper*. Spoon mix into each case until 2/3 full. Sprinkle with a little brown sugar and pop in the oven for 20-25 mins.
Remove from oven, and cool muffins on a wire rack.

These are irrisistable. Try one after 10 minutes cooling time, and you'll be hooked. Once cooled, you can store them in an air tight container. Ideal for breakfasts on the move, or as a treat with a cuppa. Try them and let me know how you get on!

Tuesday 12 January 2010

Support.

In the UK, the average woman's dress size is 16. You would think retailers would support the bigger sized ladies of our nation to look the way they want to, provide fashionable and trendy clothing that fits perfectly and looks as gorgeous on them as it did on the hanger. You would hope the shops would carry sizes for ALL women - not just stick-thin models, or anorexics.

However. Most of you will have realised that some of the high street retailers design clothes for models - THIN models - and produce the clothing to fit similar-sized women. One retailer I visited recently - I won't name them... right now - had 3 items in the whole shop which were a size 18. Most pieces on the rails were a size 6 or 8. There were even 4's in that place. It's actually getting to the stage where I can't buy anything if I'm out with friends. They go to their kind of shops, and I'm going to mine, and it's a lonely way to do things. It also makes me very self-concious if I see all these skinny girls going round rails, picking out really nice clothes in the smallest sizes, and if I go up, I have to look for the largest, which is never in stock, if they're even made that big.

Sorry, I just had to rant about that because it really gets to me. I want to wear nice things and don't want to feel like I have to be a size 6 to buy a pair of friggin' jeans in a shop. Sure, I set this blog up to track my progress while I lose weight, but part of that is showing WHY I want to do it, or feel like I need to. If shops would start creating clothes to suit the average woman in Britain, I think the population of women above a size 10 would be very happy. I certainly would.

Weight loss: Well, I've not weighed myself, been to the gym, or pigged out. I've been really good and got a new target. I don't know it in weight, but once I fit into my leather jacket again - better than I did before - then I'll be happy to stop there, or go a little bit further, down to the nearest dress size. I never want to be a size 10. Someone with shoulders as big as mine does not suit being a size 10. Or a 12 for that matter. A 14 is perfect, though I still have to buy shirts and jackets bigger for the sheer breadth of my back and shoulders. There's nothing I can do there, unless I get a grater and start to shave the bones. Nah, didn't think that sounded good either. Not very tempting.

So, I'm aiming for a very comfortable 14. Not far to go now! Mainly, I just want to be a little more lean. Not like a walking skeleton; a stocky build with power behind me, plenty of good muscle, and less fatty stuff. I'd be happy at that.

Thursday 7 January 2010

Again.

What a great start to the day. Well, it's 1.47pm, but still. Another half foot of snow on the ground, and it's not blowing anywhere. Damn. We can cope with drifting and blizzards. But snow that just piles up, sitting there, heavy, just causes havoc. Part of a shed is down - just lucky my horse had wandered off before it happened. Anyways, yes. I found out that someone I fell for has found someone else. Felt like I took a bullet. But oh well. I should have seen it coming. Nothing's meant to work out for me.

Note to self: Never trust a guy that promises not to hurt you. Because the bastard will. Every. Bloody. Time. Why can't I just find a genuine guy that isn't going to mess with my heart and my head? Why is it so difficult to find? Are you all the same now?

Now, I realise I'm generalising, and I'll get a complaint once this post is published, but I mean every other guy. Why do you all let my heart fall for you, when you are never really willing to catch it? You always let it smash on the ground, and I'm left to try and find the pieces again. I always miss some. A couple of bits have been missing since last summer. I'll never get those back.

If there is a guy out there that ISN'T going to break my heart, who will stand by me, and not run away at the slightest sign of difficulty, will he please get in touch? Because I'm sick of standing round waiting for you to show up. All these guys - I could name them, but I'm too much of a nice girl - just screw me up and break my heart time after time. I have a lot of love to give, but every time I get my heart broken, a little bit of my love is lost, along with a chunk of trust.

Hurry up.

Dx

Tuesday 5 January 2010

Food, Glorious Food

Well, so much for the diet. It's cold, snowy, and I need to keep my strength up for digging my way out of the house. Yes, we have lots of snow. Although, I've not had to dig so far. I just thought it was appropriate for me to do a random blog. Random in every way, though I'll keep it topical - food.

So, my top foods? I can't pick a food that comes top, but a list of my favourites.

Rice crispies, bacon, primula cheese - so much better than Dairylea! - eggy bread, Ben & Jerry's Half Baked ice cream, crumbed ham, strawberries, mango... Yorkshire puddings, roast beef, steak, carrot, potato, creamed cabbage, salmon, sweetcorn, chicken, sweet'n'sour, peppered mash, shortbread... Whippy ice cream, peaches, sticky toffee pudding, fish&chips, fish fingers and white sauce... Spaghetti hoops, Campbell's Tomato soup, and toast.

Some list, but it's just my favourites.

How could I forget! Chocolate =D The very best of all. Nothing better than a wonderful chocolate tart!

What's your favourite food?

As for the weather, we have 2 feet of snow. If the wind gets up, this means I'm going to be snowed in for a while. Just very glad that I have the big Isuzu and my dad to get food! Must say, it's all very picturesque around here today.

I'll be back later with another post.

Dx

Friday 1 January 2010

The Hiccup Duck

Happy New Year, everyone! What a start it's been! Carrbridge was such a success. Not as many people there this year, but it was still a great night. Mucho drinking was done, and I can't exactly walk anymore, but that's from dancing far too much. Just hurts to walk, or cough, or laugh, or hiccup. Honestly, it's quite funny, and I must look like a duck, but there's not much I can do about that. Just thought I'd pop on and post my first blog of the new year before heading to bed. Have college tomorrow, so that'll be good fun. Just hope there's not too much snow to delay trains or anything. On the other hand, I kinda hope there is, but I won't tempt fate either way.

I have a new book that I'm reading. Divine by Mistake. Completely hooked, so going to have a bit of reading time after my shower. Not long though, since I'm up at 6am. Ouch! I can see this hurting in the morning. But tally ho. Such is life.

Off for now, so will put up a better post tomorrow night. Oichdhe Mhath (Think I've spelt that a little wrong, but you get the idea. Unless you don't speak gaelic - in which case, Good night).

Dx