Olive oil

So, we were watching Jamie's 30 Minute Meals, and we've noticed he uses a LOT of olive oil. On everything. Salads, steak, roasts, potatoes, veg, the list goes on. I'd just like to know, why? Why the massive volumes of it, what makes him use that all the time when there's really no need to? What's the advantage of pouring it on lovely fresh food? It just seems like a waste and as though he's putting extra calories on it for no apparent reason. Maybe it's to make it seem more appealing? Or more expensive? Something like that? I don't know. If there's any logic behind it, let me know. I'd love to know of any theories you all have, because I'm clueless. Maybe I should start using more on my food, but I don't know why I should. Does it add taste?

Anyways, I'm actually quite tired and hungry. I made curry tonight for the first time ever, but I think the recipe had too much lemon grass in it and didn't make enough. So, I'm going to make enough for 4 next time, because it's actually a really healthy recipe, and contains a portion of veg for each of us that way. Also, I dug out my blender today. The little food processor we won as a raffle prize is bad. It doesn't chop ANYTHING, so we're buying a new one, but in the meantime, I took through the blender to see if that would work but it didn't. Seeing as it's through already, I'm going to start making some smoothies so that I can get more fruit and veg into my diet, and I read somewhere that you can put some oats into them to make them filling, so that's what I'm going to try. Might make for a good way of cutting back how much crap I eat, and will also give me the benefit of being full and eating more fruit. Bonus! I'll let you know how I get on and the kind of combinations that I like. This also means buying lots more fruit and veg, which is good. We're also going to make a lot more fresh stirfries from now on, so having the chopping blade on the new processor will really help! That way, we know what's going into our food. I can't wait! This is really going to boost the weight loss.

Oh, and on the biscuit front, there's very few left. I finished most of them off overnight and this morning. However, I now need to drink lots of juice since I'm incredibly thirsty and have been all day. But, I've heard dad rattling about the house, so I don't really think it's wise to go through and see him. He doesn't sound like he's in a good mood. How can I tell? Even the dog keeps running through and hiding. So I'm staying put. I think it's a very good plan, even if you don't! I'm not moving.

My body is now CRYING OUT for fruit, and I can't get to the shops to buy some. Although, I'll make a list so that we can go shopping and stock up :) There's a few things we need to get anyway, like natural yoghurt, rolled oats, cereal, fruit, veg, beansprouts, noodles, rice... Anything else that's healthy and yummy, I'd love to hear your suggestions.

Just went through as dad nipped out to get another bottle of whisky and possibly some food for the cat. Shoved a couple of slices of bread in the toaster, filled my bottle of juice and put our special bowls in the right place so they don't get wrecked like the other one did. I came back through to the bedroom and cuddled up with my plate, polished off the buttery toast and then drank some juice. Must say, I was needing that. I'm also getting quite tired, so sleep shall be needed too. That's what is maybe annoying my dad: the fact I'm always in bed early, even when I'm not working. I can't help getting tired :( It's just the fact that my body's so used to being asleep early that even when I know I don't have to get up at 4am, it still thinks it has to, so it gets tired early, and wakes up at the usual time, which is rather frustrating, given then fact that when I'm working, I could sleep forever and when I'm not, I can't seem to lie in. I wish that would reverse.

On the positive side of the cookie, I'm going to do a little bit of retail therapy tomorrow. I might even get my hair cut for going out at night! The only thing I really have to buy is something to wear at night, and something to update my wardrobe again. I'm looking rather masculine nowadays, which I don't like but don't know how to change.

And that's dad gone mad because I "left the kitchen in a mess". I looked at him and he said there was "pans and sinks and pans and everything". Yes there was, but all the messy stuff was in the sink, which he agreed with, so that was ok, and everything else was his. So where's the problem? Something has to be done about his drinking, because the dog is terrified and won't settle, I'm sick of being shouted at and trying to clear up after his rampages, and I'm also sick of being treated like something that came off the sole of his shoe. I'm completely sick of it all, and yet I can't leave him, because he's my dad and I can't bring myself to leave him alone. After all, with the volume of alcohol he's drinking everyday, he'd only get worse if I left. I dread to think what would happen and no one would know about it. I might just have to speak to my aunt again and see what to do, because this is getting serious.

Oh well... See? I can't stay on topic. I came on to write about the use of olive oil, and landed talking about my alcoholic, and sometimes vicious, dad. Bah. I'm going to sleep. Once I go pee.

Night all. Hope things improve in the morning...