Change

So, my plans of last night have changed completely. After a fairly sleepless and interrupted night, I'm not going to get my hair done, and I'm not going to town to get my shoes. I'm also not seeing him, so I'm totally gutted and currently sitting in my bed with my Batman hoodie on. I'm tellin' ya, I'm Batman. But yes, enough of the randomness. The bottom line is that I'm feeling pretty pathetic today. There's been more snow overnight and it's really windy. So much for the British Summertime beginning last weekend. So far, summer has consisted of wind, rain and snow. Doesn't it sound rather like winter?

Hmm. If only I could see him :( I think I know why I get down. I've had a eureka moment, I do believe. You know that thing when you're affected by the weather, ie. smiling when it's sunny, depressed when skies are grey, that kinda thing? Well, I think I may have a touch of that. Seriously. During the sunny days, I was fine! But now that the greyness is looming over us once again, I feel poop. Maybe I'm not totally suffering from SAD, but I'm still affected by the coldness and snowy weather :(

I need a bloody hug. I really really do. Damn you, weather. You stop all my planning right in its tracks and make me stay home and not see the person/people I want to see. Why can't you just stop blooming snowing and get to summertime already?!

Well seeing as I'm stuck in the house, I've been practicing a little with the fiddle. Now, I hurt like hell because I'm so out of touch with it. Thankfully, I have my support and a mug of tea. Nothing better. Well, ok, a few things are better, but nothing that I can have right now :( like cuddles, or a night in with the man or seeing Dumpling and playing some tablemat tennis or eating chocolate or... you get my drift. And to make things worse, I have cold feet, no biscuits and no energy. Could this day get any worse? Ohhh don't tempt fate, Doughball. It really could get a lot worse. I'm gonna shoosh about it though.

Hopefully the snow will be a little better by tomorrow, so I might be able to get into town and buy my shoes. And, if all goes well, I might even be able to see him for a wee while. This is all weather-permitting, of course, which means nothing will actually work out like I want it to. Grr. Oh well. Such is life. I guess things will work out the way they're meant to, regardless of how we all feel about it. That's the way the world works, unfortunately, and there's very little we can actually do about it. In fact, there's nothing we can do to change it. Fate is ruler of the world.

C'est la vie.