Support.

In the UK, the average woman's dress size is 16. You would think retailers would support the bigger sized ladies of our nation to look the way they want to, provide fashionable and trendy clothing that fits perfectly and looks as gorgeous on them as it did on the hanger. You would hope the shops would carry sizes for ALL women - not just stick-thin models, or anorexics.

However. Most of you will have realised that some of the high street retailers design clothes for models - THIN models - and produce the clothing to fit similar-sized women. One retailer I visited recently - I won't name them... right now - had 3 items in the whole shop which were a size 18. Most pieces on the rails were a size 6 or 8. There were even 4's in that place. It's actually getting to the stage where I can't buy anything if I'm out with friends. They go to their kind of shops, and I'm going to mine, and it's a lonely way to do things. It also makes me very self-concious if I see all these skinny girls going round rails, picking out really nice clothes in the smallest sizes, and if I go up, I have to look for the largest, which is never in stock, if they're even made that big.

Sorry, I just had to rant about that because it really gets to me. I want to wear nice things and don't want to feel like I have to be a size 6 to buy a pair of friggin' jeans in a shop. Sure, I set this blog up to track my progress while I lose weight, but part of that is showing WHY I want to do it, or feel like I need to. If shops would start creating clothes to suit the average woman in Britain, I think the population of women above a size 10 would be very happy. I certainly would.

Weight loss: Well, I've not weighed myself, been to the gym, or pigged out. I've been really good and got a new target. I don't know it in weight, but once I fit into my leather jacket again - better than I did before - then I'll be happy to stop there, or go a little bit further, down to the nearest dress size. I never want to be a size 10. Someone with shoulders as big as mine does not suit being a size 10. Or a 12 for that matter. A 14 is perfect, though I still have to buy shirts and jackets bigger for the sheer breadth of my back and shoulders. There's nothing I can do there, unless I get a grater and start to shave the bones. Nah, didn't think that sounded good either. Not very tempting.

So, I'm aiming for a very comfortable 14. Not far to go now! Mainly, I just want to be a little more lean. Not like a walking skeleton; a stocky build with power behind me, plenty of good muscle, and less fatty stuff. I'd be happy at that.