Again.

What a great start to the day. Well, it's 1.47pm, but still. Another half foot of snow on the ground, and it's not blowing anywhere. Damn. We can cope with drifting and blizzards. But snow that just piles up, sitting there, heavy, just causes havoc. Part of a shed is down - just lucky my horse had wandered off before it happened. Anyways, yes. I found out that someone I fell for has found someone else. Felt like I took a bullet. But oh well. I should have seen it coming. Nothing's meant to work out for me.

Note to self: Never trust a guy that promises not to hurt you. Because the bastard will. Every. Bloody. Time. Why can't I just find a genuine guy that isn't going to mess with my heart and my head? Why is it so difficult to find? Are you all the same now?

Now, I realise I'm generalising, and I'll get a complaint once this post is published, but I mean every other guy. Why do you all let my heart fall for you, when you are never really willing to catch it? You always let it smash on the ground, and I'm left to try and find the pieces again. I always miss some. A couple of bits have been missing since last summer. I'll never get those back.

If there is a guy out there that ISN'T going to break my heart, who will stand by me, and not run away at the slightest sign of difficulty, will he please get in touch? Because I'm sick of standing round waiting for you to show up. All these guys - I could name them, but I'm too much of a nice girl - just screw me up and break my heart time after time. I have a lot of love to give, but every time I get my heart broken, a little bit of my love is lost, along with a chunk of trust.

Hurry up.

Dx