June.. Oh dear..

Well this year is literally flying past. June is here, and it's my birthday next month and I haven't got a clue what I'm doing for it. Maybe we'll go to the beach or something, or maybe on a wee road trip. Honestly, I don't know, but we'll think of something to do before then.

I'm round at the mans just now, and was yesterday as well. It's amazing just being with him, and the fact that he's always going to be there for me is slowly sinking in. If I get down, he knows about it, and makes me tell him what's wrong. Sometimes it takes a while, but I'm getting better at opening up and I'm getting better in general. He's never let me down yet, and I don't know what I'd do without him in my life now. I can't imagine being without him now, and to be honest, I don't want to imagine it.

Having spent most of the evening asleep with him, and only really getting a cuddle right before he got up, I kinda miss him. And if you're wondering why I'm typing this and not still sleeping, that's because I'm actually awake after he got up to get ready for work. He probably doesn't like waking me, but tough. That's the way I like it.

He's out of the shower and texting me from downstairs. I can smell him... does that make me sound sad and pathetic? Even worse is the fact that as soon as he left the room, the tears began welling up. Never in my life have I felt so ridiculous. Except for now, when the tears are flowing down my cheeks and making my t-shirt wet. Honestly, he says the sweetest things, and better still, he means every word. I've said it before, and I'll say it again: my life is complete now that he's in it. I have a great family, amazing friends, and the best boyfriend in the world. Of course, every girl says that, but hey, if they weren't the best ones for us, then why would we be with them?

Ahhhhh I'm so happy yet sad. I'm a walking contradiction. I'm smiling and crying at the same time, and I should be sleeping since I have the bus at 7.42am, but I don't want to sleep, because I know I'll be lying there for hours just thinking of him once he gets to work. I'm getting a hug as soon as I see him - and no, I don't care if we're right in the middle of a massive crowd of people, I want one, and he's giving me one :)

I can't wait to see him. I just hope my tears don't come back when I see him. They're happy tears right now, and I know I'll be happy tomorrow as soon as I see him. I'm sorry, I'm just so excited. Cuddles and then he's staying at mine. I'm so glad I have Valentine to keep me occupied right now. I'm only watching this one then going to sleep, honest.

In fact, I'm going to stop writing now. This episode is just getting good, and I have a bit of milkybar melting in my mouth. Well, when I can't have my man, I will have chocolate. That's my new rule. Let's see how it works out.

Night, folks.

D-d-d-d-d-d-Jigglez.x