Saying Goodbye

I'll admit it now: saying goodbye to him anytime is difficult. Beyond difficult. It tears me up inside. But this morning? I couldn't even go through to hear his vehicle pull away. The thought of it brought me to tears, broke my heart, and even just thinking about it now, it's got the tears rolling down my cheeks. Even they sound depressed, the way they drop heavily to my quilt. I can't do it anymore. I can't put myself through this any longer. I don't know what I can or want to do, but something has to be done so that I don't hurt this much every time we say goodbye.

Gah.

And I had to re-pierce my ear tonight. It healed up while I was trying to put a hoop through it, so just had to go with another bar and force it through. Stingy, but it's ok now. Went very very lightheaded in the bathroom, and collapsed for a min, but was ok and came back to bed. Only wish I'd had a cuddle :(

Night folks. I'm getting too depressed to keep writing a blog. I'll be back sometime.

Dawn0fTheMoon.